Malicious Minds

Fine Dining at L'escoffier

[Okay, this will be the 3rd time I am re-typing this, please, I say PLEASE, don't let me laptop crash again. Grr.]

Yesterday around 6:00AM in the morning I got a call from my classmate, Yee Ven, she said she needed a favour from me. Her friend from Taylor's School of Hospitality and Hotel Management is having a practical assessment today and will be required to bring 3 guests to one of the fine dining restaurants at Taylor's PJ. I have always wanted to try out the food prepared by the hospitality students, so I agreed and so did Angie and Zanne.

Hence, around 12 noon we went into L'escoffier.

The menu of the day was:

Appetiser
Pumpkin soup

Main course
Sauteed chicken with Chasseur sauce

Dessert
Apple pie

We started of with some bread and butter.

We also ordered this fruit passion thingy juice for RM3 a glass. (The rest of the meals were free. =D)

Finally our appetiser came. Pumpkin soup. Yeurgh. I'm not really a fan of pumpkins. I found the soup to be a bit too pumpkin-y. But I added a dash of salt into it and it became much more er...bearable.

Rating: 5/10

After our appetiser, we were served with the main course, sauteed chicken with Chasseur sauce. Chasseur sauce is a type of brown sauce with mushrooms, shallots and white wine. I'm not sure if they put white wine into this one, although I could almost taste it.

It was quite nice actually. Wouldn't mind having it again.

Rating: 7/10

Lastly, we had our dessert (which is my favourite part!).

During our stay at Hotel Equatorial Malacca we had something similar to this at the hotel and I would say that the apple pie prepared by the hospitality students were much, much better. The pastry was really good although the apple was a bit sour.

Rating: 9/10

So that marked the end of our very first lunch at L'escoffier. Well I hope Yee Ven's friend get decent marks while serving us. =D

Rawr! I'm home!

I'm home again for the weekend! Whew...last week was quite tiring for me. Classes, club meetings, Public Speaking workshop, charity food sales and time for my Teddy =). I did not even got the chance to go to the gym. Ugh, the guilt. But anyway yesterday (Friday) was the last day of sales for my Dream Inc. Club. For about 5 weeks, twice a week we sold brownies, cheese tarts, sweets and chocolate dipped marshmallows. We've got approximately RM1900 now I think. Our target is RM2000 so hopefully with some donation we can reach it. =D

Oh! I bought Baby Oakey a wheel to run on! It's not cheap eh, RM85.80. It's so expensive 'coz it's pretty huge, about 12 inches in diameter.

Just now I went down to spy on Oakey and guess what?!

I found him snoozing on his little wheeeeel!

Lol. Oakey's so cuteeeee =P.

Mmm I think I'll go watch some Spongebob cartoons now. =D

P.S. I miss you Teddy! *huggies*

The Advent of A New Semester

So our short-lived holidays came to an end at last and I have but to attend college again. But during the holidays I still had to go to college to help out on our Animal Adoption Project by the Dream Inc Club (a.k.a Scholarship Club for the geeky smart-alecks).

However, that was actually fun though sometimes pretty sweaty. But the point is, heck do you know during our introductory class today for Principles of Economics I kept yawning so many times despite our lecturer who seem to have the ability to talk non-stop from economics to babies to celebrities to economics. Lol. I find him quite pretty peculiar and funny though.

Anyway, I have 5 subjects this semester. I heard our IT lecturer is pretty hot but he's married. =( Still it's eye candy. =P

And...omg. I just checked my Student Portal and the office made changes to our timetable. I don't have any off days during the weekday! Prior to the change, Wednesday was off for me. =( Three of the five days we have to go college just for one class. Sigh. But I suppose that means I have more time for gym as well.

Ugh yes speaking of gym. My weight isn't going down! =( Omg. I need to seriously really stop eating. I feel so depressed everytime I think about it. And no please stop saying I look fine, you haven't seen my tummy yet. Grrr!

Ah well, now with the new timetable I have time to go to the gym 4 times a week. So I guess it's not such a bad thing afterall. But it is bad for those who have to drive all the way to college like poor Angie. *pats Angie* Haha. =P

Mmm I'm back home for the weekend. Yay! Can see my Princess and Oakey! Hehe. And of course the Internet! Currently I have no Internet at my new apartment. Yeah, so it gets pretty dull there. But oh well. Gonna apply for line next week. =D

I'm gonna go chill and relax abit. (And hopefully update my blogspot Blog. It's been bare for sometime.) Lol. See ya til the next post!

Malacca 2008

Right like what I mentioned in the previous post, this post will be about the trip to Malacca I had with Angie and Zanne.

Our bus was scheduled to leave at 10am. So I woke up at 7am that morning to get ready and then took the LRT to Puduraya. The journey was about 2 hours and by the time we got there I was so hungry.

Angie called her uncle who lives there to come pick us up and he brought us to this ancient little Chinese restaurant that sells the BEST ever "char siew fan", I still daydream about it now.

Omggg I really want it againnnnn! =(

Anyway, from there we adjourned to the hotel which we're gonna stay in - Equatorial Hotel. I know, it is pricey. But nonetheless, very comfortable.

The view from our room balcony, you can see the Straits of Malacca

Baby Panda came along too! =D

We stayed a couple of hours in the room to settle down and clean ourselves before walking over to some of the shopping complexes nearby. Bought 2 pairs of earrings from there.

Then at around 6.30pm, Angie's cousins picked us up and brought us to try the satay celup.

That's where everyone dips the sticks in. A little disgusting when you think of it, but ah well, it's just to try. =)

We were pretty stuffed after that and continued walking round the shopping centers. At about 9 ish pm we went to this open air food court called Newton and ate a bunch of stuff.

Fried oyster with starch and egg

Ikan bakar!

Er...I think it's old cucumber soup

We were once stuffed again and dragged ourselves back to the hotel. Lights out!

One of the tombs at St. Paul's hill

Camwhore queens

Angie & Nikki

It was a very windy morning and our hairs were all over the place. Lol. Anyway, after sightseeing we walked over to a restaurant selling chicken rice balls.

I ate 10 rice balls and was again, stuffed. Lol. I know it's unhealty. But hey, we're on holiday!

With lunch over, we walked across the road to the Stathuys and paid RM5 to enter the museums there.

After the museum we walked a distance to the "Eye on Malacca" some sort of er...miniature of Eye on Malaysia. It's nothing much really, just a revolving tower where we have to pay to go in and sit for 7 minutes while it keeps revolving.

The view

We were pretty hot and tired after all that so we walked all the way back to our hotel to shower and get changed to go out again.

It was tea time and we went into this little shop called Cafe 1511. It was featured on the food programme Jalan-jalan Cari Makan so I figured it must be pretty good.

Pai Tee

Nyonya spring roll

Otak-otak

Ah, we were half stuffed. The other half reserved for the food from Jonker Walk.

Laksa

Cendol and ais kacang

Angie and I blowing bubbles! =P

Bubbles on the floor

The next morning - our last morning in Malacca was pretty gloomy. It rained all morning, we couldn't go out to eat. So we had to stay and eat the er...overpriced food at the hotel.

Check-out time was 12 noon so we hung around the hotel as we didn't really have much time left. We camwhored a bit more to burn time.

That's it for our trip. I think all of us enjoyed it thoroughly. Can't wait for our next semester break for yet another trip. =D

P.S. I think we'll be going to the beaches at Kuantan, Pahang. =P

Pavillion @ 10th July 2008

Just 2 days after we finished our final exams on 8th July, Angie, Zanne and I took a couple of trains down to Pavillion.

We were starving by the time we reached so we immediately head over to Tony Roma's for lunch.

We all agreed to order the set lunch and the onion ring thingy which was supposedly heavenly as told by Angie.

After lunch we went into the washroom and camwhored there for a while. Lol. People gave us funny looks as we stood in front of the huge mirror taking pics.

There are loads more of pics, but it's pretty much the same. =D

Then, we walked around and looking for stuff to buy. I bought some stuff for my nails and eyes. Plus a birthday present for my bro, it was his birthday that day.

Hmm I can't remember now what else I bought but I do remember that I spent more than I planned. Lol. Oh well.

Oh yeah, we tried a bunch of dresses at Forever 21. Think I'll get a few of them when I get my allowance. =P

We left around 5.00pm because I had to go back early for my bro's birthday dinner.

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Then, on the 12th I went out with CM, Jie Yi and SC to celebrate Jie Yi's birthday. My lappie somehow can't read my camera's digicam now, so can't upload piccies. =/ But there are only pics of food, forgot to take the people. Lol.

Mmm oh and last Thursday, 17th July 2008, again the three of us (Angie, Zanne and I), we went to Melaka for a 3 days 2 nights trip! Part of the pictures are with me while the others are with Zanne. I shall wait (till God knows when) for Zanne to upload hers before I make a blog post about it. =D Til' then, see ya!

I Can't Feel My Brain

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Just  bloody ugh.

Malaysian Studies is such a pain in the butt. I really cannot wait to get it over and done with. Oh but just so you know its sooooo ironic that Malaysian Studies also happens to be one of my highest scoring subjects. I know! It's so dumb.

However, I've got a feeling that for my finals (tomorrow) I will not perform as well as I did during mid term. Sigh.

For the past week I was having my study break and to be honest it was more of an "chill and relax" break. I told myself last Monday that, "Okay, I will fully utilize my study break to its maximum." But what did I do every day right until only Saturday? Oh, I sat in front of my computer watching Friends.

Argh. I'm like half-lying to myself that I have already studied weeks before and am ready for tomorrow. The other half is kinda regretting not have made use of the study break. Oh god. Why does it always have to be like that?

So yesterday (Saturday) and especially today I spent most of the time cramming whatever information I can about Intro to Mass Comm and Malaysian Studies. I'm telling you my brain actually feels numb right now (hence the title).

Sigh. I hope all goes well tomorrow.

Hmm wait...perhaps I should take a more confident approach.

I will do great tomorrow!
(Or I hope at least. >.<)

OH WAIT!

Here's a picture of Baby Oakey right after his bath:

TWCS @ KL Hilton

Okay so about 10 days ago, I attended the Taylor's World Class Scholarship award ceremony at the KL Hilton Hotel. We were supposed to be there at 7:00A.M for the briefing...but you know lah Malaysian timing system. *rolls eyes*

Anyway, we were sitting down waiting for the event to start when suddenly this tall guy all dressed in black appeared a few steps in front of where I was sitting. From the back I could tell he was partly white and definitely hot. Then finally he turned around and OMG! It's Will Quah! If you don't know who Will Quah is here's a picture of him:

I used to see him on NTV7 as a news anchor, he was also in the TV ads for Brand's Essence of Chicken and lots more. But anyway, he was the emcee for the TWCS award ceremony! I wonder how much Taylor's paid him to come.

The way he talked was so good, like when he was reading my (and others) achievements, he made it sound like we're THAT great. Lol yeah.

Mmm so like most occasions and events, I always always ALWAYS look forward to the food being served. =D

Especially DESSERTS. Yum.

I loved the drinks they made. It was some pineapple punch thingy. Tasted sweet and sugary although Kenneth didn't like it. Haha.

Four of us who got the scholarship under Taylor's College School of Communication.

Didi and I are under the advertising company Universal McCann while both Kenneth and Nicole are under Arc Worldwide.

Hmm 2 days after the ceremony Taylor's made their first phone call to me asking me to help out during Campus Day. How fast eh, hehe. But at least I'll get paid. =D

Past. Present. Future.

I let my mind take a little stroll down the memory lane. Not too far away, just a few years back. Things were so different back then. So different that they showed no clues nor signs that the present would be painted this way.

Some things I wish I never did so, but if I did not, I wouldn't have what I have now. I wouldn't have met the people I know now. But if things were different then I would not lose the people I knew back then.

I guess right now I'm feeling a mixture of gratefulness and regret. Grateful for what I have today, regretful for what I have lost.

There is a saying...

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

My present. Teddy. College. Scholarship. Oakey.

My past. Disfigured. Blurry. Dark. Uncertainty.

Clearly, the present is much better. I have everything I ever wanted now. So why the desire to wander down the memory lane?

Another saying...

"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it."

So I should cast the past aside, cling on to the present and be ready for the future.

What is the future? At the moment, it is pitch black. Light shall shed bit by bit and more of the future shall be revealed. But when does it stop? It is a perpetual process. Never stopping to wait for you to catch up. Yes, I should prepare for it.

Hence, goodbye Past! Hi Present! I'll be looking forward to seeing you Future!

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Now that was a weird post eh? Reading it now, I think it's a little bit odd but still okay I suppose.

Mmm it's late here. I promised Teddie I'll be going to bed already. He's waiting for me to join him...well in Dreamland. Lol.

Goodnites.

Fishing My Way To Made Of Honour

Rawr!

Distraction

Mmm I finally bought my hedgehog! It's a boy and it's called Oakey!
He's about 2 months plus now and sleeping most of the time.
He's only active at night.
He gets grumpy when I wake him up from his sleep.
He loves sleeping in his little hidebox.
He's so cute and only the size of my palm.
He has such a cute little nose.
He has tiny and cute paws.
And also, he's my distraction.
He keeps me a little bit occupied.
He keeps me company during these few quiet nights.
But sometimes he makes it a little harder for me though.
He reminds me of it.
He doesn't even bother waking up to take my mind off it.

Ah well. =/

Hmm...

Weird. And uneasy. But I seem to get the feeling that things will change...or maybe it's just me. *shrugs*

P.S. I updated my other blog CLICK ME

College and everything else

Ah finally holidays! Had our last exam paper today which was Malaysian Studies. I think for me it was the easiest paper among other subjects. Hahaha. It was more or less like History during high school. So yeah, I guess I could still recall certain stuffs about Malayan Union and etc.

Anyway, let's rewind back to Monday. I did something which was well...another "whoa" like the pole dance. Haha.

I pierced my nose and I dragged Jacinta to do it too. Lol. =P

The stud that they gave initially was a little too big so we went to another shop to get smaller ones and have them change for us. It hurt a little but I suppose that's better than walking around with a shiny silver mini ball on our noses.

The next day we went to this western restaurant which Teddy and I discovered one late night and found that they charged surprisingly cheap for such good food. So I brought Jacin, Angie and Zanne there.

Pics here:

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I felt that this week flew by real fast especially with our exam going on. Now we've finished our last paper and its a week holiday for us. But even so, it wouldn't really be much of a holiday for us. Ah, the pain of assignments! The worse of all - Malaysian Studies. We need to write a bloody 12-paged essay. =/ Grrr...

Ah well, it does relieve the stress by a bit though. And I get to sleep in till late =P.

Just So OMFG

Oh. My. God. I can't believe what I did in front of so many people at college just now during the Orientation Dinner. It was like I was...possessed or something when I did that. Oh my godddd...now when I think of it, I feel so damn embarrassed. Ahhhhh!

Gah. I was just standing at the side at the front of the crowd leaning against the handrail just chilling when that emcee guy came over and invited me to the center with him. So I gave him my hand thinking we were going to do some sort of "innocent" game or something.

But oh noooo.

He actually asked me to pole dance. Yes. Pole dance. And the "pole" is a human. A male human. Omggggg. Argh. I don't know what came over me but I did it. YES! I "pole" danced around that guy wearing a clown hat. My friends said it was hot but ahhhh I feel so damn embarrassed about it now.

Sigh. Now when I go to college, they're all gonna recognize me as the "human-pole dancing" girl. (>.<)

Just so OMFG.

P.S. Zanne took some pics and even a short video. No way the video will be here. Pics maybe. =P Haha. Omggg. I feel so dumb for doing that. =/

Ah well. All I can say it I just feel so OMFG.

Ah... Drama begone...

Hmm...today was pretty eventful. A lot happened today and I would say it helped us understand ourselves and others better. We held a large meeting to explain ourselves about the leakage of a certain blog that wasn't meant for their eyes. I would say the star of the day has to be Meliza. She was awesome. People from other rooms had their eyes transfixed on her when she gave her explanation. I almost cried listening to her.

Anyway, all seven of us that were involved with this "scandal" were given a chance to speak ourselves. I kinda have a feeling now that I should have spoken more but then again, I wouldn't have known what to say because I wasn't really that involved in it. But in the end I suppose everyone realised their own mistakes and all shall be forgotten. So that's everything I guess. No more college drama....I hope. =P

Ah! The Drama!

I don't know whether to laugh or cry at the current situation in my class. It's almost sooo predictable. So yes I do admit we were a bit shallow and low to do such a thing as to blog about a single person's flaw. (though I didn't really participate much) Ah, yes and the whole class found out. But then today when we went to class there were whisperings that WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYONE. Yes, we were shocked that such lies were spread.

But oh no. This is the best part.

I was just told that someone else who always hung around us posted stuff about EVERYONE in her own blog which link she posted at our blog that we created ourselves as the joint contributers. And guess what? She inserted OUR names into it also without even us knowing. Ah ha ha ha. Yeah, so you can guess what's the atmosphere in class right now. I can almost feel the tension slicing the air.

Hmm...so yeah. I feel really pissed at that single person said above. True yes, I feel guilty about doing what we did just to someone. It is a really low thing to do. But then the revelation of the roots of all this just now, it made me feel really embarrassed. For something which we did not do, it became our total fault.

For Christ's sake, if that bloody person want to gossip about the WHOLE class in her own blog, please just go on ahead but just don't freakin' include ALL OF US.

Sigh I really am speechless. Now we have to apologize on her behalf because everyone thinks we did it. Gah.

This. Is. Just. So. Typical.

Just awesome.

Ah did I tell you how much I love having my Fridays free? Absolutely no classes. The weekend starts officially on Thursday nights for me. Just awesome.

Anyway, today Ms. Catherine had all of us FICM students to go to the launching of the event done by the Sem 6 Diploma in Communications students. It's this professional communications consultancy company thing that's run by students themselves. They did a pretty darn good job. And had honorary guests attend as well.

Guess who was one of them? Joel Neoh! Okay, I guess he is quite a nobody to most of us. I only saw his face on TV a few times for this Malaysian version of The Apprentice. He won the first season. So yeah, when I saw him today I was like "damn that guy looks so familiar." I thought that maybe, oh he might just be one of the students.

But then, they introduced him as the winner of The Firm and then I remembered. Also, Khai Lee was there. For those who don't know him as well, he kinda started theCicak website. And if you don't know theCicak as well, I guess...nevermind. Haha. The HOT one though, is Joel. He looks much better in person and on stage. I did some research when I came back and I read that he did some modeling before. And that makes him hotter. He was sitting the row in front of me. Isn't that just awesome?

Ah, last but not least, guess what? I got the World Class scholarship! I know! Me! Of all people, me! Haha. My parents were...purely ecstatic. I could tell. And they said when Taylor's issue a cheque back to refund the fees for the first semester, I can keep it! Yay! =P Just so awesome, huh?

Mmm...right. Gotta get back to work now. Movie review! Argh. Find it kinda like a pain in the butt. Ah well. Should be a piece of cake, according to Teddy. Hehe. Bye!

Rawrrr!

Again I'm back for the weekend. There's Internet! Yay! Yippiez! Haha.

Anyway, as you might know I don't have classes on Fridays. So instead of just staying at home and shaking our legs we decided to ambush Angelyn with a surprise birthday lunch. Technically, her birthday is tomorrow but we figured out it was better to do it today.

So on Wednesday after class, Zanne, Jacinta and I went over to Sunway Pyramid to look for a place where we could eat, laugh and camwhore all we want. We settled with this restaurant Jack's Place and made reservations for Friday. We even managed to get the manager to throw in a free brownie for the birthday girl.

It was actually supposed to be a surprise. But later Angelyn told us that earlier Ruby sent an sms saying that she's sorry not being able to come. So Angie already knew about it. Hmm =/. But still we had an awesome time.

After the lunch, Meliza and Zhao Wern had to leave us coz they had a class at 2pm. The rest of us went for a movie Definitely, Maybe. We missed a few minutes of the beginning which made it a bit confusing for me until almost the end when I finally got it. It's a sweet movie, I'm gonna download and watch it again.

Then, Jacinta like always said she was hungry. We went to have crepes and waffles at Pancakes International (I think that's the name) but decided although it tasted pretty okay, the price and serving size was crap compared to Waffle World. So we finished what we ordered and then went of to Waffle World to have more waffles.

Can you actually believe that? We went to 3 different places to eat today. And it was Jacinta who suggested it. Grr... She has like super high metabolism rate. Constantly complaining of being hungry. So wherever or whatever she eats, sometimes I eat too. Hence, the extra 5 pounds I've gained. =( In only 3 weeks. ='(

Ahhh...I need to get into a gym and I'll drag all of them with me. =/

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And good news! Guess what? I got shortlisted for another scholarship offered by Taylor's. It's called Taylor's World Class Scholarship. Its like global recognition. And the interview is on Monday. Zomg! =S

Ahh I hope I do well. Because if I do, it's 100% tuition fees waiver. Then my parents wouldn't have to pay for it and maybe that would mean more allowance. =D

Haha. I seriously am broke. I overspent in a single day.

Sigh. How I wish...

First Week

So the first week of college has passed. It's Friday night and I am back at my own home. Already on the third day we were given our first assignment for English. We were supposed to produce an advertisement for a product or service. We decided to do a service as we would not have to go through the trouble of looking for a unique product that is worth advertising.

Today we did the video shooting at Subang Parade. We spent half a day there and at the college. And today was supposed to be our off day. =/ Ah well...that's college life for you I guess.

Anyway I shall not reveal what our presentation is about yet until we've finalised everything. Should take a day or two for the editing. Hopefully all goes well and as planned. *close eyes and crosses fingers*

That's us at the Media Hub at Taylor's PJ. It was around 3:45pm and we were all dead exhausted. Thought it would be great to end it with some group pics.

Presentation next Tuesday. I have to figure out what to wear. =/

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Anyway, here's a great, awesome song by Melee called Built To Last. This is gonna be our third song. Teddy and I heard it on the radio and I decided it should be our 3rd song.

"Built To Last"

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

And so it begins!

College started today! Woke up at 7:45AM feeling pretty nervous. Spent most of my time on my hair coz today is one of the worst ever bad hair days I ever had. It would not lie flat and it was getting wavy. Ugh.

Anyway then, today was the first Orientation Day. At the beginning I was kinda alright but towards the end, my eyelids felt like it weighed a hundred pounds. Ugh.

So I finished at 4:00PM and trudged back to my apartment. Took a shower and a quick nap. Then, Teddy came to take me out to dinner at SS15. And now I'm at Teddy's place stealing Internet for my laptop since my apartment doesn't have yet until in about 2 weeks time. =/ Ah well. At least it feels good to leave independently. =D

Ah, the familiarity.

Mmm yet again this feels familiar. =) Not really gonna elaborate much on how I feel. Let's just say it reminds me of those days before.

Here's a really great song that fits my mood.

"Almost Lover" by A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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The first note of the song already sounds...so...painful. Emo. I could cry listening to it. It's a really good song. Go listen to it. Helps on a bad or sad day. =)

Judgement Day

Ah, the day finally arrived. For the past 3 months I kept postponing worrying about it only until yesterday when I really start to think how many subjects that I can really say confidently that I will get an A for. English and Mathematics. That's all. I was only sure of getting As for 2 friggin' subjects.

So anyway today I woke up at around 9.40am. Took my time to get ready, made sure my hair was all nice and straight. Drove to school with my dad. Then had to wait a while for the results to arrive.

And finally at maybe 11-ish, the dreaded results arrived. We stood nervously at the edge of the queue unsure of whether to get it right away or just wait. However, my dad kept pestering me to get it already. So with shaky and clammy hands I wrote my name, address and number. I waited with baited breath while the teacher looked through the pile for my name. She put it face down and I took it without turning it up.

I told CM that I would wait for her to get her results before we see it together. So I handed it to my bro and dad first for them to ease the suspense. I asked my bro to give me hints of what I got.

"Definitely more than 5 As."

Okay, a sigh of relief. But I needed to know more.

"Got Bs or Cs or not?"

"A few Cs la"

"What???"

Then he hands it over to my friend Wai Kit, I asked him how was it.

"Wah, not bad ar! Straight As la!"

"What??? Really?"

It was too good to be true....and that turned out to be true. I turned it over and scanned through the results. I managed to secure a total of 8As and 2Bs. Not too bad I guess, since I only thought 2As. Lol. =P

The 2 subjects that ruined my near-perfect results were BM and Biology. =/ Was actually hoping for an A2 for BM. Sigh. Ah well.

But overall I am pretty glad with my results. Never thought I'd get 8As. I mean yeah I do dream of getting it, but not seriously. And yeah I got A1 for History. Lol! I was like "what the hell?"I was barely sure of half my answers.

And I guess all the tuition and extra work I did for Additional Mathematics did pay off. Got an A1 too =D.

Haha so today after my results my parents took me to Taylor's PJ to enrol early to ensure that I would get the Taylor's High Achievers Scholarship. I did manage to get it, so its 50% off tuition fees for foundation and 30% off tuition fees for the entire 3 year degree program.

So...pressure and tension all gone I guess for the time being until the next exam. Got results beyond expectations and well...parents are happy with it.

And Teddy of course. =D *squeeze*

Ah, can't be bothered to think long enough for a title. It doesn't really matter I guess, you the reader are already reading. So it's better I conserve all the leftover brain juices to keep my body functioning because at the moment it feels as though it is gonna shut down at any time.

This is the worst ever combination of viral and hormonal attack on a girl. I have flu, running nose, sore throat, fever AND pre-mentrual syndrome more widely known as PMS. It always helps if you're not so emotional when you're sick. But as for my case, I'm feeling so goddamn emo.

And to further agitate me, my manicured nails have gotten tiny visible scratches on them. I had them nicely done at 1 Utama yesterday. Spent 45 bucks for a French manicure.

Mmmm anyway I spilled all my emotional contents in my other blog.

http://simplyintricated.blogspot.com/

For The First Real Time: I Hate Myself

Current time: 3:00AM
Location: My flooded with darkness room
Music/sounds: Heavy rain thudding against the ground outside

(30 minutes before)
The thought of sliding the blade against my arm was so tempting. Just the thought of it brought a little satisfaction to me. I sat there for half a minute imagining what it would feel like. I never did something like that before so I couldn't really complete the imagination. But I made it up with a sudden sharp pain followed by calmness slowly flowing in. It was just the thought itself that calmed me. Imagine if I did it...I wonder what it would make me feel. Just a little cut... Lasting pain? Short-lived calmness? Immediate calmness? I don't know.

(Right now)
The arm that I intended to "make a mark" earlier feels numb right now for some reason. I am much calmer now. My chest has stop hurting and my breathing has returned to its normal pace. Tears have dried up and thankfully there's no blood to be dried up.

I now sit here with no other emotion than guilt which has turned me literally numb (as how my left arm suddenly became numb). I am also shocked and surpised that the thought of cutting myself crossed through my mind just now not for the first time but for the second time. It was always some sort of taboo to me. Something that  which I really disagree and forbid - cutting oneself. I never speculated that one day I would do it. Well I didn't do it, but the thought itself appeared in my head.

Call me irrational or stupid and you might be right. I am most of the time. That's what got me here right now. It's pretty much like gambling or smoking or taking drugs. When you're doing it you think you can control it and you avoid thinking about the consequences. But when it's time for repayment, you instantly regret for being so chaste about it. It's like what they say "what goes around, comes around."

Karma never fails to happen. And when it does happen, you would do anything to go back and change what happened. But you know that's impossible. So the only option you have left is to stop what you have been doing and accept the "effect." What's damage stays damage. And you're going to have to endure what's the damage done. Just like smoking or taking drugs, it may take many attempts to finally let it go. If you're strong, it may only take one attempt.

But for my case, being "too nice" has never brought me anywhere and I suppose it didn't work for my situation either. I guess in the future I have to harden myself and be strong. Because I can't be assured that the next time this happens the blade is gonna be stain-free. Yes, I sound weak. So I am going to prevent this from happening again even if it requires me to sacrifice a lot of things. It's part of the repayment scheme. Just gotta accept and live with it.

Oooooooh!

Look! Pink nails!

Look! My very own Kelisa!

Look! Silver-black sport rims!

Look! Radio and CD Player!

Look! Speedometer!

Finally my Kelisa arrived. Been waiting 2 weeks for it. Now it's here! I can't wait to officially get my P license. I drove it around a bit today. It's awesome...the feeling of driving your car (or rather bought for you). The pick-up is great, I can go 40 km/h in 2 seconds. =D

Oooh...I can't wait for my P license to be ready. I shall roam every land available to me. Haha. Can't wait to drive to Teddy's place.

My First Ever Valentine's Day

This year I got to celebrate Valentine's Day for the first time with someone. =)

But well both of us don't really like the idea where during Valentine's only the male is required to do all the work and the female just sits there waiting to be surprised. I believe that both parties should put in effort to make that particular day memorable.

So... I told Teddy not to get me flowers as they really cost a bomb during Valentine's.

However, ...

I was changing in my room when suddenly I heard a knock on the door. I knew it was Teddy so I opened the door to let him. I thought he was bored waiting downstairs and came up to bug me but before my very eyes a bouquet of flowers materialized.

Truthfully, I did not expect that. I was unsure how to react because... I don't know. Sometimes when I come across a situation I don't face often, I would react awkwardly. And getting flowers is something I rarely or rather NEVER experience so I was a little unsure what was the right reaction. But thankfully I saved myself from the awkward moment by giving Teddy a kiss. Held it long enough so the awkward moment would pass. Hahahaha. Don't get mad or anything k, if you're reading this Teddy. =P

We didn't really plan on what to do on that day so I told Teddy earlier that we should do what we did during our first date.

On our first date, Teddy bought me coffee from Starbucks. So this time I bought Teddy coffee from Starbucks.

Blueberry cheesecake from Starbucks

Teddy was looking for shoes so I decided that as a Valentine's gift I would subsidize part of the cost for the new shoe. (If I had more cash then I would have bought the whole thing myself for Teddy)

Awesome, huh? =D

We had dinner a little late as a lot of places were full with couples who made reservations beforehand. I didn't know it would be so packed that reservations were needed. =/ Ah well.

That was written on our dessert plate


We then headed back to my place finally to spend a little time alone without any disturbances. =)